David I couldn't even come on to your site for your birthday because I was so upset. It is still so hard for me to be here and your not. I miss you so,so much.Keep trying to hold on but life without you is so hard. Feel I am going backwards instead of trying to go forward.My head is in a mess again. Loving you forever David and in my heart and mind always.Goodnight son and hope you are hearing me speaking to you....... Lots of love from mum xxxxxxxx